Time to choose

It was the realization of time and the neutralization of time…

This is the point, that the slump downward or the lifting upward takes place in everyone's life. When the smallest choices become so important, that like everyone else I've made plans for how I thought my life would go while I was still young; however, unexpected changes continuously occur, feeling left behind or forgotten by myself or those around me. Even as I tried to move on, my feelings sometimes became trapped to the point of building up as certain moments either escalated or shifted to a completely different view which had the sensation of losing self-control. 

The moments coming together, mixing uncontrollably, as if gathering in suffocating waves. Just waiting to be rocketed back towards the surface to hopefully regain enough breath to refill my lungs even as the next plunge sends me even deeper. 

It wasn't until more recently with lots of miniature releases and specific choices about returning to what I was taught that I could start to see, hear and think with more clarity. Patience and Grace along with faith, is what I had continuously held on to with a tight grip, or else my recovery would seem to have never taken place.

But I had to start with myself, because I am the only one who can choose how I change! No one else, no matter how hard they may try, can make me change. My choices are mine; I can either act or react to how or what is happening around me. There are consequences that come from all choices made! Some are blessings and others are a sharp kick in the pants. 

Even as I've been editing this post that I wrote multiple years back (before 2020) and reediting now in 2025. I can now conclude that the changes I have been making are coming easier; however, the credit I give for being able to change is not mine to take. Because I have a dedicated friend who declared by His own voice that I will never be forgotten, He continues to lift, comfort, love, and has never closed Himself off from me. His arms are forever waiting for me to take the single step into them enfolding me tight. He is patiently waiting continuously as he asks us "to come unto [him]", so the question is: will you?

This is your own choice, your very own, I can't make it for you, nor can anyone else! There are multiple blessings promised and given, the words have multiple testimonies by those who have already written them. Here is one that I have relied on: "There is a law... upon which all blessings are predicated- and when we obtain any blessing from God, it is by obedience to that law upon which it is predicated."

I've seen it over and over, and multiple testimonies from the lives of those around me. Even in the very lives of those who don't have the same beliefs as myself. Everything that has been given unto them for their Good is a blessing because of their obedience to the laws of life and even the laws which have been made by us all. Many work hard to invest; those investments if not through greed, are lent or given to others, uplifts them to increase in talents and abilities which help to benefit others around them which in due course comes full circle back to bless their own lives yet again!

That is the act of service! And the showing of how we can appreciate others who are constantly or fleeting in our own lives.

The 2nd Date

We both enjoyed it, first we walked the mall, then headed to barns and noble, to look at different books, had dinner at golden corral which was good. After that we did two rounds of mini golf at trafalga with jessi and her date; i also happen to see my good friend russel there with his wife. But all in all it was a good night to have fun and be together.

job one day and gone the next

After working at BYU- catering, if i remember right a week when by before i got hired on at moduslink, which was good and steady while it lasted; but now comes the part where i need to actually get something else underway and i didn't do it yesterday or today but it needs to get done! The first step is always the hardest for me unless i know that i am needed and wanted in whatever i try to do~ but its getting to that first step that seems to drag on and on until i finally arrive where i need to.

Finished

last night i finished Brisingr, oh what a good book and a 5 day read. and can't wait for the fourth and final book then i am going to add the series to my collection!

In the Hall...

People are every where but to their classes they go, some to the top and others to the bottom. In a rush it seem congested but actually moves in a flow.
Seeing them go up and going down,
they exercise without going to the gym.
Because from building to building they must go, as they don't want to be late for their next class.
And when it is over for the day, they continue to walk, bike or drive to their
home, apartment, or even to a friend.
But when it comes to Homework, it is as long as the day may seem, even as they study.
I'm sure when it comes to having fun, they are "a" present, but then in the early hours they finally fall asleep, waiting for the alarm to sound begins their day again, for when class gets boring there is hardly one still to be steadily taking notes.

Differences with the same Goal

So to start out, there are differences we each have individually that make us who we are! As we live through each day life gets harder and harder to survive; nevertheless, we continue to be preserved through the night, to learn more the next day. we continue to have reasons why we do what we do, how we do, and to whom we do but it is no longer enough to just reason our way around, like we owe others something. The only person that i deeply need to remember is Heavenly Father! through His son Jesus Christ, who is our Redeemer, who made a sacrifice giving Himself so we can return to OUR Father, being the only way to Him.
We are different, we each learn differently, each of us has a long way before we can ever say "I'm Perfect" but there are countless times that we want to be viewed as perfect; however, in this life things are always going to be coming to us imperfectly, though we are given a few things that are perfect like the Gospel and church of Jesus Christ for these last days. we are in the last days and He is ever more closer to coming then he was ten years back, but we are given a way to be reminded and to prepare for that special day as it will arrive. So remember who you are and do the work the lord has in store for you as you continue to live as he would want you to live.

Catering at BYU!

I am greatly blessed to have worked there, it was a time for me to fugue myself out and getting to know other people whom I hadn't met before. The great times we caters had.