This is the point, that the slump downward or the lifting upward takes place in everyone's life. When the smallest choices become so important, that like everyone else I've made plans for how I thought my life would go while I was still young; however, unexpected changes continuously occur, feeling left behind or forgotten by myself or those around me. Even as I tried to move on, my feelings sometimes became trapped to the point of building up as certain moments either escalated or shifted to a completely different view which had the sensation of losing self-control.
The moments coming together, mixing uncontrollably, as if gathering in suffocating waves. Just waiting to be rocketed back towards the surface to hopefully regain enough breath to refill my lungs even as the next plunge sends me even deeper.
It wasn't until more recently with lots of miniature releases and specific choices about returning to what I was taught that I could start to see, hear and think with more clarity. Patience and Grace along with faith, is what I had continuously held on to with a tight grip, or else my recovery would seem to have never taken place.
But I had to start with myself, because I am the only one who can choose how I change! No one else, no matter how hard they may try, can make me change. My choices are mine; I can either act or react to how or what is happening around me. There are consequences that come from all choices made! Some are blessings and others are a sharp kick in the pants.
Even as I've been editing this post that I wrote multiple years back (before 2020) and reediting now in 2025. I can now conclude that the changes I have been making are coming easier; however, the credit I give for being able to change is not mine to take. Because I have a dedicated friend who declared by His own voice that I will never be forgotten, He continues to lift, comfort, love, and has never closed Himself off from me. His arms are forever waiting for me to take the single step into them enfolding me tight. He is patiently waiting continuously as he asks us "to come unto [him]", so the question is: will you?
This is your own choice, your very own, I can't make it for you, nor can anyone else! There are multiple blessings promised and given, the words have multiple testimonies by those who have already written them. Here is one that I have relied on: "There is a law... upon which all blessings are predicated- and when we obtain any blessing from God, it is by obedience to that law upon which it is predicated."
I've seen it over and over, and multiple testimonies from the lives of those around me. Even in the very lives of those who don't have the same beliefs as myself. Everything that has been given unto them for their Good is a blessing because of their obedience to the laws of life and even the laws which have been made by us all. Many work hard to invest; those investments if not through greed, are lent or given to others, uplifts them to increase in talents and abilities which help to benefit others around them which in due course comes full circle back to bless their own lives yet again!
This is your own choice, your very own, I can't make it for you, nor can anyone else! There are multiple blessings promised and given, the words have multiple testimonies by those who have already written them. Here is one that I have relied on: "There is a law... upon which all blessings are predicated- and when we obtain any blessing from God, it is by obedience to that law upon which it is predicated."
I've seen it over and over, and multiple testimonies from the lives of those around me. Even in the very lives of those who don't have the same beliefs as myself. Everything that has been given unto them for their Good is a blessing because of their obedience to the laws of life and even the laws which have been made by us all. Many work hard to invest; those investments if not through greed, are lent or given to others, uplifts them to increase in talents and abilities which help to benefit others around them which in due course comes full circle back to bless their own lives yet again!
That is the act of service! And the showing of how we can appreciate others who are constantly or fleeting in our own lives.
